motivation is hard
its been tough not being able to bring myself to work on much of anything. im in a never ending cycle of being frustrated with myself for not doing anything, then finally getting myself to work on something, being bad or struggling with said thing, then going back to not doing anything at all. ive been struggling so much lately i feel like my brain is inaccessible and i can barely even get myself to write a line of code. it is physically painful knowing how hard it is to think and do anything when this used to not be a problem for me.
i havent been consistent with working on my game dev goals or on my website. the prospect of a job search and prepping completely one shots me. i keep getting stressed out by the fact my website looks like shit right now while i figure out what i want to do stylistically. but whatever, today i ripped off the bandaid and got myself to set up the skeleton for displaying my blog posts on my website. i spent all of 25 minutes working on it and honestly it felt like 2 hours but that is more than i have done in a while. im attaching an image here so yall can see how embarrassing and not good it is right now, but i did something at least. i hope you do too
