little wins
i have been hitting a wall trying to get myself to start prepping for interviews again. its hard to find any motivation to when it feels pointless, if i dont want to get up in the mornings. ive been on a bit of an upswing lately, and im trying not to do too much to prevent burning out before ive even started.
i never wouldve fathomed that this is where i would be at 27, with a completely dysregulated nervous system and an assigned social worker. the shittiness of it all is honestly comical at this point. my low bar to clear is just to read through the typescript basic/intro documentation and take some notes. its practically all review, so im getting a bit of a dopamine hit from feeling like none of this is foreign information. im not going to jump into trying to code just yet, i still need to let my brain know it is okay to try again